Broken Record Player

Why is my mind
skip
Why is my mind
a broken record player?
skip
skip
…scratched record?
Why is OCD
a blunt needle?

Half the time
My anxiety
skip
fills me with so much dread
I skip,
And forget what I’m worried about-
All I know is the nausea at the pit of my stomach,
The bile rising to my throat.

Why is my mind a broken record player?
Why do I have to
skip
have OCD?
Haven’t I suffered enough?
…have to have OCD?
Why am I my own deejay,
Remixing my muddled, obsessive thoughts?

Why does my head constantly ache
From overthinking?
Why am I paralyzed at even
The possibility
Of making the wrong decision,
Of making any decision?

Why is my mind
skip
Why is my mind
A broken record player?
Why is my mind a
skip
….record player?
Why is
skip
...a broken record player?
Why is OCD
A blunt needle?